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30/07/2002 (Tue)
I don't intend to read them again, but it's just too tempting, as it conceals my past. I wonder if you still keep that, or you have thrown it away. I had the idea of erase them all once I gave that copy to you, hoping I can forget it sooner, but I don't want to abandon my own memories. There were mistakes and lies, it's these flaws that add colours to our lives, so there's no need to deny them.
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28/07/2002 (Sun)
When I get older losing my hair, Many years from now, Will you still be sending me the Valentine, Birthday greetings, bottle of wine
If I'd been out till quarter to three, Would you lock the door, Will you still need me, will you still feed me, When I'm sixty-four.
You'll be older too, And if you say the word I could stay with you.
When I'm Sixty-Four --- The Beatles
Suddenly thought of an old poem, it moved me when I first read it in school, now it still touches my heart. We need care no matter how old we are, how tough we are, and how strong we pretend.
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27/07/2002 (Sat)
A new haircut doesn't make me sleep better.
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26/07/2002 (Fri)
There's a difference between do not sleep and cannot sleep, I am stuck in between the two.
After working hard under a dim light for 3 hours, finally finished a part of the masterpiece.
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25/07/2002 (Thur)
The effort of starving from 2am-5am is worth of thinking up a good plan. Well... I can only think when my stomach is empty, but my brain can't work when I am hungry. Yick!!
I appreciated all the small gestures. But please take good care of yourself, I don't like to have dinner with someone whose eyes are more watery than mine. 0_0
Welcome to HK!! Multi-lingual citizens are one of the characters here.
Bridget Jone's Diary, nice film! If you find a person who just like the way as what you are, go marry him.
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24/07/2002 (Wed)
They used their sweat, energy, love and youth to exchange for the comfort I had today. I am going to repay them with more comfortable life later, so wait for me and trust me.
The most precious feelings is not the one when you achieved the impossible, but it's when you are happy for the ones you care, coz it's the moment when you feel love and unselfishness. So, I AM REALLY HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!
No matter it's plan A or plan B or there's no plan at all, I will be as contented as now and forever. But I do have a plan X and Y for you.
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23/07/2002 (Tue)
The advantage you have when 2 girls go eating, is you can have a cheesecake for free and won't be embarrassed by the waiter even your request is unreasonable.
You had sleeping pills, so you can sleep better. I do not, so I can't sleep well. Reading other's diary is fun, you can see a person nakely in front of you, but you hide behind the door to watch. I want to keep this diary even when I am not in HK, this is the reason why I started all these. For I want to record my feelings and allow those who really care about me to know how I am getting on, but I will hesitate in my writing if it's related to someone who will read. Well... hesitation doesn't mean I want to lie, but I guess it's harder of being naked in front of your friends than in front of strangers.
I will keep my promise!! You didn't see it, but I am working hard to achieve it.
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21/07/2002 (Sun)
Lamma Island is always my favourite. Though most of the gift shops are gone, you still feel the tranquillity of an outlying island. Will anyone feed their dogs "doufu flower" with a little bowl and a spoon? You can find one in the island. I've seen a real "sweat-er" today. Haaa~
Indigeneous Indian curry in Chung Hing Building. Waoo~
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20/07/2002 (Sat)
Another crazy shopping day!! Prepare clothes for the coming tripZz. ^0^
Another crazy eating buffet without ice cream but with live band and pretty girlz in sexy outfits. Watched Tom Cruise for 2.5hrs in a refrigerator, luckily, I got a warmer with me.
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19/07/2002 (Fri)
UM = University of Massaging, since I will be studying there, I am expected to acquire certain skills when I'm back.
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18/07/2002 (Thur)
If you are fired by your boss for not going to work and abandoned by your mum for not going home, come over to Holland and be my roomate. $160 per night for a double room is far more reasonable than those rooms in HK. Then I'll have a black person to live with. ^0^
I got easily annoyed by their caring words, but deep down I knew they love me soo much, that's why they worry about me. I shall try to fulfill all their requests, which actually are good to me, but if I can't, I appreciate them in my heart.
Sometimes it's not the outcome that matters, it's the process and the intention. It might turn out to be a dreadful meal or a terrible trip, but when you think of how hard they tried in preparing, the result is with no importance anymore.
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14/07/2002 (Sun)
Allegery is back again...sooo itchy. It is all your fault, but I authorize you to do it.
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13/07/2002 (Sat)
Shopping is just the basic instinct of women. When you face beautiful clothes all at bargin price, nothing can control you anymore!! If your body allows you to wear beautiful clothes, there is no reason for you to dress yourself badly. Forget all the theories about being low profile and humble. To show off your youth is the previleged of young people!!
Only bad guys will carry it with them. =p
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11/07/2002 (Thur)
I feel guilty that you have to lie because of me, but I am also glad that you are willing to lie for me. You are going to take a half-year break... you sure you want that?? I don't want it...
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10/07/2002 (Wed)
Last lesson of the Chinese Poem summer course. Really like the professor. He reminded me of my chinese lessons back in form 6 and 7. I had the most wonderful chinese lessons at that time. It stimulated me to think, to reflect and to appreciate the intelligence and art work of the past geniuses.
When he was small, I used to talk him to the park. When he is older, he 'protects' me as we go jogging. =D Thx~~
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08/07/2002 (Mon)
Do I need to have reason to have lunch with you eh??? And if I don't, does it sound ridiculous to you???
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07/07/2002 (Sun)
Am I your sleeping pills? If yes, I give you a sweet dream or a nightmare? I prefer neither but a peaceful and quiet rest.
I did have a nightmare yesterday night, it's terrible in a sense that...I will be in that background very soon. Actually I don't want to write it in the diary as it will only remind me more. However, I want to have a little record here, to see if my nightmare really comes true. For I believe that something is meant to happen no matter how you avoid it. So, don't scare ourselves.
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06/07/2002 (Sat)
Sometimes, even you have money, you can't buy what you want. Sometimes, you don't need to spend a penny, you can get what you desire.
I am a little secretary responsible for making calls to companies and waiting for morning calls.
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05/07/2002 (Fri)
It's always wonderful to drop by and have a nice lunch with your best friend. Then carry a new book with you to kill the boring time in travelling MTR and in waiting the busy staff. Use all your strength to beat up the cream, the egg and the sugar. Finally, you come up with lot of sweat and a nice cheesecake.
I counted the calendar, there're 6 weekends left. Are you going to miss me?
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03/07/2002 (Wed)
The dream I had on Sunday night justified my feelings. It lets me know my own priority and who is more important. There's nothing truer than your own conscience, so I trust my heart and my dream...
I am glad that I am being choosen as a listener. Though you say I don't understand a bit of how you feel, I try my best to be a good listener rather than a problem solver. Remember, I am not going to fix you as I believe you have your own determination to make your own choice. I am just here to listen and offer comfort. (No matter you need it or not)
Should everybody has worries? If not, does it mean that they don't care? Or does it mean that they are brainless? One's worries might seem trivial and insignificant, though it might not sound grand enough to be talked about, it is important to them.
I know I won't be as care-free as now when I am graduated, there're troubles and obstables out there waiting. I just want to enjoy my time before I am tied up in too much worries, can I?
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01/07/2002 (Mon)
You won't feel you have a family untill you need help. Assistance come in all forms, but only one message is being conveyed ---- you are being loved! Thanks everybody. I know no words can express my gratitude and I hope I won't let you people down!!
It's the most fantastic firework I've ever seen. It's fantastic not because of its colours, not because of its deafening explosions, not because of the shapes, but it's because of you.
You asked me do I want to go for another trip? Definitely! I guess what I lack is some guts. We all are excellent in BS-ing and not getting all the things done and done in a nice way.
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